Assalamualaikum. First of all i wanna say thank for coming and reading this. Well I'm not expected to found this old blog anymore. Guess it already three years by now and now I'm 25th years old. I'm currently at bintulu working as technician at press metal bintulu. Well for now it not that bad and the paycheck you could say as average and more then enough to support my needed, honestly it depend on how you manage your spending that make you survive until the next payment.
Now i have got a bike as i could say one of my dream already come true. Alhamdulillah I manage to take care of myself until now.
This going to be sentimental so prepare or don't read it. I was once loving someone with everything that i have got n maybe now I still love her. But I don't know what else I could do to make she understand of how i feel right now. I don't know what her real reason when she ask for a breakup. She said that she don't love me anymore and can't pretend that she love me. I have heard that excuse so many time and after so long not my love that gone, it my will that getting weaker. I'm a normal human too, every person has their limit. If you really say that you don't love me then why do you come back 2 years ago when I'm almost fine and almost getting my old self back. If everything in this world need love then i guess many people will end up being alone until they die. Now i'm end up between hope and surrender. I'm clueless, since i met you i have set my goal to make you to be my bride and everything that i have done until now base on that reason. I'm better being alone than wasting my time playing as a lovely couple without a future goal. Maybe it not the right time as many people saids. I just wish for someone that would love as much as i love her.
Guess that enough for now. The word won't come out anymore. Bye
23/8/2018 02.54am
